Everything is going wrong, But we're so happy.

Ummm Proable not the best lyrics to describe my mood but I like the song. Sorry for not writting a blog for a whole month whoever reads this. So what I have I been up to??? Your proable not thinking that, but I will inform you of what I have been up to. Well firstly mostly football, I have only been played for 45 minutes I think since I have been away from Blogger. There have been 4 matches and I have only been played once in the starting 11 as I was promised at the start of the season. I played so bad because I wasnt as confident as I was at the end of last season because of lack of play. Not Good (N). What else have I done. Ooooo My EMA came through so I have bought myself a new phone (Sony Ericsson W205), Xbox Gold Membership, FIFA 10, Gym membership and I think other stuff(food proable). I have recieved in this month A new top, Pink Skinny Jeans, Leg warms that I turned into Gloves, a band and a spa band. I went to a party last saturday, It was alright I suppose. Also I watching this thing called Code Geass, It wicked. Nearly finished it tho =(. Anyway the Gym is awesome, I feel like Im getting fitter everyday basicially and Im in a good mood when I get out of there. So all my problems dont worry me and pester me anymore because I take it out in the Gym and I feel like Im becoming more open =P.That might not be a good thing for some people but Its good for me as I get a lot more say in my life. I will repeat that for people who didnt understand the last bit "MY LIFE". There we go should be able to understand that as its in block captials too (Y) . So anyone wants to bitch about me or spread stupid little rumours bring it on becuase even when Im down I have found a way to still feel happy with everything and just block out what your saying about me. Yep thats right bitches I just invited you to say whatever you want about me =P Take your best shot. My mates that I have lost an kind of contact whether it be over stupid or a serious thing, sorry. But I like to say this my best mates are Ben, James, Adam and Tom. (The last one is a bit of a fool sometimes ;)) Sorry if your offended by that last bit about my best mates, but you/me might have just lost something we original had as friends.

Soo thats all, till next time =P .
Simon

If you can't be yourself then there is no point in life.

I know that I haven't wrote a blog in a while , but to be honest I have been lazy and not in the mode to write one. So I shall explain my week to you first then put a few other things in.
Monday - Well I can't actually remember much of this day. Except for it was a start to a good week. But I do remember two things, Hannah Eccles and D are going out and one of my mates told me he started weed over the weekend around the party. Why is everything started smoking weed, they don't smoke it straight either. They add tobacco to it, thats more unhealthy for you. I know Im being hypocritical, but I have stopped.

Tuesday - Not eventful day, But I remember being happy and content with myself. Played Fifa 10 against the lads and then back to school. Can't remember much else except for the Facebook convo with Charlie(Girl).

Wednesday - Art trip! Well the bus trip there was fin and the art in the tate modern interested me most especially stuff from Ann Lee. But it was talking to Charlie more that was good we just talked about random things and things we liked. Because it was the like the first time we had talked face to face even though we go to the same school lol. Anyway Art trip ended and taht was it for Wednesday.

Thursday - The Day of quickness and goodness remember a load of shit but its not important just lessons and a load of random chit chat. No footie training tho =(.

Friday - Quick school day but the Night was pretty much awesome as I beat Tom Kent on Fifa 10 and got to borrow it. (Y) Sweeeeeeet!

Saturday - Watched another football match that I should have been playing in. But I should be in the starting line up for Fintan Fc thats two weeks away so im going into town next week.

Additional notes: Preparing myself for next week. Tim Minchin tomorrow!!! So excited Yay!!
Thats its guys and girls
Simon
P.S Might be writing a new song (Y) =P

This year's most open heartbreak

Ummmm Let's think of how to put this. I'm thinking of going to a different 6th form, but I don't know which one and It might not be till next year anyway. But Anna said I should go to Bournesides one. Hmmm decisions to be made again lol. Ummm today went into cheltenham, Saw people (Y) and talked a lot. Saturday has been the best day of this week, yep this week has been shite. First Me and Sara argue, Toby gets involved, me and Sara decide not to be friends, next day Sara is all friendly :S (she is always doing that), then school was bad and boring. Friday was just the worst, because of that stupid enterprise day and Silas threatened to "merk me". First don't threaten me, second don't say merk or anyother stupid word if you mean beat up. It just makes you sound stupid and will make me laugh at you. Saturday was the only good day as I got to see Anna, Lucy (now she is random, I'm a coffee cup apparently lol , but I love it anyway), Foxy, Bendy ( who has dyed his hair black, looks good tho),Ruddi, Charlotte, Harry, Lizze( I like turtles!), Livi, Jasper, Paul, Big Chris, Van and load more. Was a good day of the week but tomorrow Im thinking of paint the bedroom as Im bored with it xD
Thats it
Simon

Yay I did finish my song!!!

Yep I did finish the rest of those lyrics. I don't know how to put it. Whether it is good or bad??? So Im gunna put it up here and then can you leave comments about it please and Its only the lyrics becuase I can't play a instrument but Im hoping it will go with a piano or guitar piece maybe. If its any good.
Well here goes nothing (Y)

Your Happy Ending- By Simon Iredale xD

Baby I'm you happy ending
but you haven't realised it.
Please say you have noticed me
because I have noticed you.
And you have been in my mind forever.

Just wish I had sometime with you
I'm always wanting you
Say we have a chance
I'm your happy ending

Always happy when I'm with you
Never felt like this before
Don't break my heart
It will break like glass

But you don't listen
Do you?
So I found someone new
I loved her as equally as much as you
Tho the decision was not made
between you and her

Those days between you and her
were the things you would fight for
As if you loved me
and so I choose you

This is what you wanted
for me to be yours again
To control me again
To be loved by me again
To use me again

But I still loved you
I'm still your happy ending
(For now)

Thats its
Copy rights go to Simon Iredale xD
Anyway please comment on what you think of it

And I shall now leave you with some good music.



Byessss
Simon

Baby I'm your happy ending, But you havent realised it yet.

Want to give a guess where those lyrics come from??? Well I bet you can't get them right because I did them Its only one line but hay its a start Lol. So Biology is boring and now shitty. Ict is just boring including people that I dont't really want in my class. The only thing I want to do is Art, its just something I can do and apply anything I wnat to it like my emotions, experiences and wishes. Its really one of the things I look foward to in school. The others are seeing some of my friends and the others is frees even though they dont give you much time to do anything. Can't take PE as the Pe teachers will turn me away as they are asses.
But hay I need to pass ICT and Biology, so I can continue to take Art and see my friends. Oh but I will have to continue to take Biology and ICT to continue taking Art :( Somethings come with a price and Im ready to pay that price to be happy. Hmmm I haven't been played in 4 matches out of 5 as I wasn't there for one. But still 4 of them. I have had 0 minutes on the pitch. But Im gunna get played tomorrow because I promised a mate. We would win and we will (Y) So its more than 100% to assist or score tomorrow. Can't wait for my EMA to come through (Y) but I did send the form off like yesterday , So I will have to wait and see if I get the ok for it :D .
Well I think thats it
Simon

You gave me one opportunity, I mucked it up. I got a second opportunity and I fucked that up. Do I deserve a third one???

Yer as you can proable tell depressive title means depressed Simon :( It sucks. I keep going back to those two momments. Foolish boy. Anyway I haven't been played in 4 matches that I have been to that 4 out of 5. Not happy with that :( Ummm I don't know what to talk about and I dont want to moan. Shite I have nothing damm I wanted this to be a long blog. Oh well we cant have everything we want. Aty least I have learnt something =/.

Simon
P.s Please give me another opportunity and I want muck it up promise Xx shinyluv

If you took my beating heart, then you would have 2 beating hearts and I would have none =(

Well today has been godd till night per usual =( . It always goes like that. Meh. Well I have had a odd day but a good one so I guess it counts.
I can't really be asked to write a blog so I shall leave u with some lyrics.

Manage me, I'm a mess
Turn a page, I'm a book
Half unread

I wanna be laughed at
Laughed with, just because

I wanna feel weightless
And that should be enough

Now I'm stuck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second hand pick me up
And I'm over, getting older

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here

Make believe that I impress
That every word
By design
Turns a head

I wanna feel reckless
wanna live it up, just because

I wanna feel weightless
Cause that would be enough

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here

This could be all I've waited for
(Waited, I've waited for)
And this could be everything
I don't wanna dream anymore

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonnna be my year
And I've been going crazy
I'm stuck in here

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year(it's gonna be my year)
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere(go nowhere)
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear(everything I fear)
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here

Simon
P.s depressed =( not good