I see you lying next to me :(

I don't know why, but things seem ok, but they really aren't. If that made any sense. :S Anyway wat have I been up to today, I put my name down for a job at the Chestnut tree. Which shouldn't be too bad if I get it as I will have to work Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and thats from 12 till 3:30 XD I be happy if I got that job. I don't know what to write, yet there are a million things running round my mind :S again. I did a drawing today and I'm pretty happy with it :D! Ummmmmm ran at of things to put, even though my mind won't stop thinking.

I have never wanted to be with you this bad, ever. (right this momment) :(
X X X

Simon
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead'

Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone (Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone (Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
Give a guess??? =P

Prom!!! XD

Well that the Prom over and done with. But I really enjoyed it seeing everyone again and the meal was nice. One problem the wine was shiiiit, it was really watered down. Most of the drinks were :(. Anyway danced a bit and talked to Tom, Hannah, Chloe, Kirstie and loads more. Dan got Prom King but because he wasnt there they had to draw it again :(. The best bit of the night was the last dance with Sara , slow dancing to 'Your beautiful' by James Blunt. I sang some of it to her, but it was just after a while it was like there was no one else around us and it was just me and her. Which I admit was very nice especially looking to her eyes. I swear my heartbeat was beating faster than usual. Anyway It was really good night. Wish everyone the best of luck with what ever they do and please try and keep in contact.
Lovee you guys

I love you, Sara XXX
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.

Simon :P

Bulletproof =]

Anyway I think I should do this blog before the prom! Yep today is the day of the prom and everything looks set. I have my tux, my customzations and My lift to and back. Anyway Im going with no one, but hay I already know Im getting a dance off Sara and Kirstie (thats because Alex might try something with Kirstie). Yer I have pockets! XD so I have to look after some of Sara's stuff. But I have to leave time to prepare for the prom.
1. I need a bath and shave<< Might have to do that with blunt razorblades, if Mum doesnt get back.
2. Need to get into the suit.
3. Need to add my absoulutely cool customzations. =]

Anyway Dad is giving me a lift to the prom in his Jaguar =] and then Mum is picking me up in the Vauxhall :(. Ryan is not coming and I dont think there is a after party :( Oh and Im the only boy I think on my table.

Anyway I think I should relax and then get ready. Good plan XD

Cya you all there excpet for the people who read this and I dont even know and dont come to my school.

I Love my Cheese puff
X X X

'Been there, done that, messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet
I won't let you in again
The messages I've tried to send
My information's just not goin in'
Bulletproof- La Roux<< I love it

Im moving to New York!!!

Ok first thing I'm not moving to New York, its the song ttiel for a Wombat song. Secondly, sorry for the last 2 blogs as I was a bit pissed (drunk, not angry). Yer you can tell I was by the attempt of the face. Lol oh well thats me, good thing I had got some good news (my footie award). Wow! Yesterday there was a party :D Oh yeah Sara and me are back together :D It was brillant, when it tipped it down Ryan, me, Sara, Sam and Bee, took our tops off then just whent out in it. Got drenched. Oh and we played spin the bottle. Witch was funny as I kissed like everyone except Steve and Ela. But apparently Im a good kisser, what I dont believe. Umm then we watched My Bloody Valentine it was pretty cool. Woke up in the morning and found out that my jeans were not dry so I went into the co-op on my skateboard in my pj bottoms and a top. I looked so sexy. Anyway went into school at 1 to see everyone, pretty cool. Ryan had his lip ring in and Mr.Edwards came along looked at Ryan and then said to me ' You shouldnt be skating, go put that in your tutors cupboard' I really wanted to say that I wasnt in school and he can piss of, but I was in school uniform so I could get onto the field( there was a playground next to it).Anyway, Bryony if you read this dont yoyu dare have a go at me I didnt have any credit and I told you that yeasterday over MSN when you were having a go at me.

Thats it except for I luv you , Sara X X X
Simon

My award and a attempt at a face on Blogger?!?!?!

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My Squad Player award

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FREAKY

You will be the death of me!!!

Yer, I will explain the title in a bit. Well before this weekend started I predicted that the weekend would be crap, guess what predictiton came true. =D Awwww I fucking hate myself for predicting stuff.So where to start better than at the good news. I won the squads player award (I didn't even know there was a award for that because all we voted for was the players player and the youngs player.... Must be the Wayne, Simon << Lol same name as me and Lynn's decision.) Well I got it for going to every match even when I knew I would have a slime chance of playing and supporting the team. Oh and some fantastic new Andy is marrying Donna, It was so cool. He scored a penalty, then ran over to her( After getting the ring off Lynn), proposed to her and she said Yes!

Ok now for the shit bit of the weekend I think I will start with tomorrow. Tomorrow, I have to do some carparking in the school field for Scouts :( and then Dad is not coming either. So I will be all alone, What great fun, just me and my lovely thoughts. Ok onto today, we lost 4-2 to Finton but hay its a friendly and we had a laugh especially a misplaced attempt for Jack to over head kick the ball and miss it. Hmmmmmm. Well this kind of links today and Friday together. I know, proable by now everyone is sick of hearing about Sara and me. What has it been now since it all started like 2 years or 1 and a half , lol, I lose track. Anway Bryony stayed round on Friday night and we watched Along came Polly while eating some Ice cream. Then Went online on msn and we talked to Chloe.(This part will tie in a I think) Anyway in the morning, I recive a call from Sara and she asked me the usual questions then asked 'Did Bryony stay round last night?' So I answer truthfully By saying 'Yes', what do I know, before I can get another word out. She hangs up on me.So after Bryony has gone (Oh she recieved a Pleasent text from Hayley... iff Hayley could ever be pleasent) I text her asking 'Hi u pissed bu(at) me' yes I did spell 'at' wrong stupid phone. She sends 'Why ever would I be?!'. She then sends 'Why Did You pick me , If i'm not what you want... X'. I send back 'Sorry, but she is my friend and u will have to accept that . Xx'. Then I get 'So that is it? You don't even care enough to fight for me...Xx'. I send 'Honestly, I thought u were the right choice... but if this is how ur going to act then we should rethink us. Xxx Sorry Xxx' -Yer proable not the best thing to send. Ok lets skip a few texts ' Well you obvs don't care do you. And tbh If you want bryony and not me I would rather know where I stand even if its not what I wanna hear. I d rather you go ahead and do what makes you happier cause whatever is going on is not making me happy. I mean... I dont wanna loose you, but everytime you talk about her it hurts me. And knowing she stayed at yours has just pushed me over theedge. Even if nothing did happen. .... The doubt will still drive me nuts xx' thats from her . First point, I love how this text proves that she doesnt trust me :S yer me. Ok then she goes on in this text to say that it hurts to hear about Bryony from me. Ehum I have had to deal with you and Toby and dont tell me you don't have any feelings for him anymore because I see it when He comes round after school. That sparkly when he is around comes into you. But never when I am around. So how do you think I feel everytime I see him. The last text I got from her was 'Ur a wanker!' at 23:22 why she said that , I don't know. I would love to know but I do have a valid point for not replying. Sherborne has shit signal on Orange so its not my fault. I wanted to to you, but when I log on I find out you haver changed your status on everything back to single. So you made that decision not me, So don't you dare blame me for anything. I was just trying to fix a friendship and you couldnt cope with that. Oh and thanks for forwarding every single text to Hayley not really the smart thing she showed everyone at work! Cheers for that. Oh and for the Chloe invovlement It I think she told Sara that Bryony stayed round.

Simon << Pointless
P.s Im kind of in a sucidial modd now thanks and you wouldn't care, only one would care.
don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Aerosmith- Don't want to miss a thing

I'm a war machine, and now you'll never have to know.

Well I'm back and this day has been more eventful than being in Cornwall. On the way back Me and Bryony start texting each other just talking about things and we are kind of better now. So thats a good thing. Got to see Sara when she got off work today XD I missed her loads :( Anyway just basically hugged her and watched 2 movies with her. Was very nice I have to say. Urgh got a Maths exam on Monday and its in the morning!!!!!!! Anyway on holiday just basically did what my step-mum wanted. WOOP! BARCELONA WOOP! Yep they won the Champions League title making them the first Spainish club to win the triple which for them is the La liga title, Copa de Ray and the Champions league trophy. But now Messi has to be Worlds best player as he proved he was better than Ronaldo in that match and Samuel Eto'o should be in the top 3, He bloody derserves it, What a goal from him and also he won the La Liga top goalscorer and Messi won the Champions league top goalscorer. Holy trinity forever!!!! Anyway thats it.

Bye bye

Some of us will die alone.
Some of us will never reach the end of the road.
It isn't enough.
Some of us will never know the meaning of trust.
Some of us will feed off all the people who give.
It's never enough.
Fightstar- War Machine

XP
xxxxxxxxxx luv ya xxxxxxxxxx